I'm going out tomorrow, and I'm looking forward to it. i haven't been out in weeks and i am in desperate need of social activity. i also have a party as well and that is just the best. i had a lot of sweets today, i always eat sweets when I'm feeling down, who doesn't? but today can be described in one word : tenebrous " tenebrous: adj. dark or ominous". today was so devoid of liveliness and anything fun, on top of that i did things i regret, but that's all over now. i looked over my childhood today and modernized it by loading it onto my computer. the picture is one of me blowing out my candles on my third birthday. i decided to do something called picture a day, my favourite musician is doing it and i would like to partake. the idea started from an artist named Jamie Livingston, whom from 1979 to 1997, took a Polaroid a day, eventually documenting his battle and subsequent death of cancer. something like that is somber in idea but also so beautiful. to document your life like that, in the classic medium of Polaroid photos. thinking about that kind of makes me happy. I've been feeling to uninspired and abandoned of creativity recently. i hope something will come by and change things. until then. ill look up at the moon from my bedroom window