went to temple this Sunday, in fact I'm still here, and i uploaded a picture of the prayer book. i had a long day yesterday, went to do service for 4 hours, shoveling heavy mulch in the sun, i know slightly what it feels like to do prison labour now. which reminds me, i need to wash my clothes. then i walked to my best friends house and i took a shower and i got picked up by another friend and we went to south coast plaza then American Apparel then Irvine spectrum. i arrived back at my fiends house and i walked to anothers. my phone died while i was in their neighborhood and i couldn't find their house. i met a sweet man and a woman and they helped me bring my phone back to life. its surprising how compassionate some people are nowadays. and then we went to a party, i liked it. over the night i had a really bad shoulder, it hurt so bad that i wanted to cry, and just about 4 hours ago it went away, thank lord Buddha. overall i had a good time. as well as i got a new jacket which i love, it feels soft on my skin and warm on my body. i have another blog coming tonight because i forgot to blog last night. its so interesting how yesterdays run in with compassionate beings coincides with today's lesson on compassion. i can hear the bells now. have a great day

I'm going out tomorrow, and I'm looking forward to it. i haven't been out in weeks and i am in desperate need of social activity. i also have a party as well and that is just the best. i had a lot of sweets today, i always eat sweets when I'm feeling down, who doesn't? but today can be described in one word : tenebrous " tenebrous: adj. dark or ominous". today was so devoid of liveliness and anything fun, on top of that i did things i regret, but that's all over now. i looked over my childhood today and modernized it by loading it onto my computer. the picture is one of me blowing out my candles on my third birthday. i decided to do something called picture a day, my favourite musician is doing it and i would like to partake. the idea started from an artist named Jamie Livingston, whom from 1979 to 1997, took a Polaroid a day, eventually documenting his battle and subsequent death of cancer. something like that is somber in idea but also so beautiful. to document your life like that, in the classic medium of Polaroid photos. thinking about that kind of makes me happy. I've been feeling to uninspired and abandoned of creativity recently. i hope something will come by and change things. until then. ill look up at the moon from my bedroom window

i came home from school today and i saw a box of twelve cupcakes on the table. neatly arranged like eggs in a carton. each with its own safe place to keep their icing from sticking. i wish humans could have that safety, from the evils of conservative society. today, one of my friends asked me if i was gay and i didn't know what to say, and i felt terrible. so i didn't answer, i wonder what impression i left. a lot of this blog is going to seem like a long long revolutionary rant, I'm extremely liberal and i feel so anti... conservatism. in my eyes, i see the founding powers of the conservative parties and churches to be the enemy, granted i don't act on it, but its how i see it. i don't prejudge you. but you see what society can wreak on a guy? we all need our egg/cupcake cartons don't we? consider me the coffee cupcake on the bottom right. the different one, will i get mistreated? that's left up to you and society. theres a deeper message to this. I'm pretty sure if you know me you know what I'm speaking of. but yea, hopefully tomorrow will be more fun. i have a birthday party for a friend on Saturday and that ll be fun. and today was totally devoid of homework, pretty awesome. sweet dreams like the icing on those guys up there.

i think from now on i am going to stop adding titles to my blogs. wow, amazing, i stopped. so i started loving iced coffee around 6-7 pm, that cannot be good for me. i feel as if its impeding on my sleep but maybe its ust a placebo effect. I havent had any homeowrk for the past two days, i dont like it, i feel as if im not doing anything to benefit me. i didnt even paint today. now, im a pretty faithful guy, but i just seem to be unable to be as faithful as i used to *faithful as in religion*. oh wow i havent commented on our new president either, how wonderful that we have such a president, i must say i have no problem treating him like the king. i have no doubt he will help this country in boundless ways. oh well, i hung up my self portrait in my room, i hope that doesnt seem too self obsessive, after all, people takes millions of pictures of themselves and i paint one. i got a stupid comment about that recently but just brush it off. im waiting for my new american apparel heather grey (gray? grey) and i got a new wallet thats white. here is something to ponder:

what we think we become

sweeten up my life

I'm starting new entries today since i haven't failed to blog in 2 months. not much has changed. i try harder in school and apply myself more. but this blog isn't about school, its about ones life experiences. so i started painting again and i was so happy today, i sold one of them and my patrons loved it, and i made my first dollar. calculating out how it takes 2-3 hours for a painting to be complete, i am making way more than minimum wage. if you want a portrait by the way. contact me via blog or myspace or something. i started to read my old blogs and found a lack of structure, a mere rant. i shall start to structure myself and limit the amount of content i am putting on. so yea. consider this my new coming. in about one more minute i will do a new blog post about my day as if i had not failed to blog for a sixth of a year.