twenty

uhm so its been twenty hours since my last post and wow, doesnt twenty hours sound so short? but in reality thats like twenty eps of houses or almost an amazing season of project runway or top chef *PADMAS SO HOT* so i woke after my hard sleep, hard as im i was so out i couldve passed the county coroner. so today i got asked to go to the la americna apparel holiday sale, i did but frankly i went last year and it was a load of ... work. cos i came and i stood in line for almost 5 hours, got a sunburn on my never before sunburned face and got a cpl good things but nothing that fits like a retailed item *yes i am all about quality over quantity* so you may ask or may not ask why im writing one for saturday again , its becaus elast night wasnt really saturday but friday pulled over. so im writing this so as to not be lagged in future entries. so today saturday cartoons eat whatever till about four. then i remeber the dining hall in my temple and the writing on the wall said "the five contemplations before eating". which really interested me, as you may or not know im a buddhist and ergo id like to learn more. so yesterday was my bestfriends birthday party and everoyne said grace and god stuff and i wa slike ... for one ew and for two i feel left out. how wrong of me to improperly represent my sangha right? so i was reading about the five contemplations before eating i found out how to pray befor ei eat! :D which made me happy but also i hope people dont think im weird, ahah ill only doit at dinners or something cos i feel... like i want to represent my religion whilst other people are asking mary or god thanks for their meal. i will thank the universe for making mine and pray for the hungry and suffering that they too will have enough to eat. not a bad idea right? it strikes me this makes me sound religiosly intolerant slightly but honestly, comon im extremely liberal you guys. so the way my contemplation goes is : contemplation one, i will count there merit in this food and praise the source of it. contemplation two, i will assess my virtues and see if i am perfect or deficient enough to recive the honor of eating me food. contemplation three, this food is to help me fight against my faults, namely the beast known as greed. contemplation three, i recive that food only to accomplish spiritual perfection. and lastly , i recive this food as and only as medicine for my weakening body. then i say the nianfo three times and im done!. it was huge for me cos it was firs ttime i learned it. i know some of you guys must be rolling your eyes and think im crazed out. so tomorrow is sallys surprise birthday isnt that great? yea im excited and i hope itll be fun. i am also going to a viewing of a passed friend and i hope she is resting in the pure land. on a brighter note, it is almost break and i am extremely excited, i notice my entries seem to be two to three times longer than most, good for me! i was also listening to man li today which i love that song! i aimed someone i like but they didnt answer which made me worry but my firned reassured me that they were gone. what a calming thing to hear. thanks friend *wink* im so ready for tomorrow, im also nervous but luck to me yea? love you guys and sleep early! i feel like kinda good but then bad too, oh well im sure more good than bad, OH! and i ate sweet potatoes and banans around dinnertime :]

goodnite everyone