summer is so beautiful, the embodiment of relaxation and calmness (be it in the form of partying or sleep). i cannot wait to experience summer once again. it seems like all the summers past were just a waste of time. this year, i am going to fully use it to my advantage, and enjoy the many long hours i have to myself and with my friends. I'm determined to find my summer love and find true happiness. i heard the sweetest line today, or last night, its all a blur. but what the song said was that when this guy and his lover were together, he would always take his watch off so that they shared there time with no one but themselves, i don't know about you guys but i think that is absolutely amiable. So, picture time, picture above is the first picture i took of the summer sky. i kinda changed the angles so that the trunk of the great old tree would look like a road. which is what i hope my road through summer will be like. long, fruitful, and in the end, green and lush with yield. and summer will still be there. so the song. boy i hope ill be able to relate to that over the summer, its not that i need someone, its just a long for them. you know, loneliness is a poison to sanity, independence, not so, but loneliness yes. tomorrow is my last day of my sophomore year and i want to thank anyone and everyone that made it worth having and memorable. i cant believe how much i love the people at my school! they make it great. i went out today and had a good time too. i just want to remember my second to the last day as much as i can. carefully documenting each moment worth remembering with photography. tomorrow too will be just like that, but to an even greater extent. this will be a hopefully stirring, memorable, and sensational summer. i love you guys. goodnight! and have sweet sweet dreams

finals week, lots of stress but it seems like it subsided today. my teacher showed a ton of kindness to me when she told me that she genuinely felt i was intelligent enough to take her ap class so i feel really indebted to her. and then i got home early and the person i wanted to befriend didn't befriend me yet, but it was a step to even try. so i feel good about that. the rest of my finals are relatively easy and i don't worry very much. picture up there got taken at temple about thirty minutes before we even start praying, really patient people, to even stand there for 30 minutes. so, school is coming to an end and i plan to really be productive this summer and to be as impressive as i can. impressive as in making an impression, but what other definition is there? well, i cant put it into words well. and i listened to the same song all day, i don't get songs stuck in my head like some people claim but i do crave songs and today it was "your visits are getting shorter" by bloc party from infinity. i feel really parallel to it, i haven't done anything like i should and I've faltered to even care about anything i should this year. tomorrow, exam on Cyrano and to kill a mockingbird. what a good book tkm is. i love that stuff, even though its not very deep, unless you read it deeply, its got great brevity. i read like three novels in a week recently, boy meets boy, geography club, and St's of Augustine. really good gay novels. one of those few things i can relate to and it really helps improve the outlook on life. well, that's all for today. so sweet dreams everyone more tomorrow? 2 me up

summer

summer is almost starting and im really excited.v. i want to start clean next year when school starts and this summer is all about relaxation, contemplation, and producing happiness.i. i took a picture in chemistry a couple days ago. you can see it. its two gummi worms *yes, the high quality confection.n.* and there was only two left in the bag. it embodies a major goal this summer, i hope for someone to care for me. these two gummi worms symbolise love and that they're there for each other. something i don't have. i want it, yet im not looking, yet I'm wanting, its a hard to explain sensation but i think a majority of you guys know what i mean.c. the fear and stuff. im basically looking for some love but not even romantic love. i just need someone that can hear me out and totally know what i mean. its not that i dont have that, i have great friends for that like Christine and Hieu etc. but I'm looking for something specific.e. hopefully everything turns out well. sweet dreams you guys, more on the week tomorrow, if i remember to get on considering my two month long slump about blogging. sweet dreams!